Hi, It’s Her Soul Speaking

oul

What if I wasn’t in her?

Would I be anyone else?

Would I be the same?

I think not

Because I am who I am

I think that even if I was in a different body

Or had a different name

I’d still be who I am

I’d still have the same likes, dislikes

I’d still be dramatic

Sappy and everything I am

It will always be me

Cause there will never be anyone else

No one would ever want to be me

I mean because I’m a mess

Such a mess

I mean, she is a mess

Of course people would think that

I am inside her body

DUH

I’m a free spirit though

My soul wouldn’t change

Wherever this may go

I will always be me

Unless someone could make her see

That there may be people

Who would want to make her be part

Of something she never thought

She could be in

She will be thankful then

And so will I

That finally, there will be

A space for someone like her

And I would love to go back inside her body

And would want to live once more

Only if…

Only if that happens

But what if not?

What’d happen to her?

Would she waste her life?

Or maybe…

She’ll hope

The only thing she’s good at

Hoping

The last of her resort

Probably her only resort

Because that’s what she is left

Sometimes I wonder

Why couldn’t she just give up?

Ha! Funny

And weird

I wouldn’t be here if she didn’t ask for another chance

You know what?

She’s suffering

But she’s fighting

I could have left her a long time ago

But every time she cries

It shoots like a blade in me

Although I can’t be hurt, really

I am no physical being

I’m like her other personality

But she’s unaware of me

I can tell you

She is fucking hopeless

I feel sorry for her

Really, really

I wish it was easy to just leave you know

But I wouldn’t be alive either if I wasn’t given a body

I would die

I mean, technically I won’t

Because I am a spirit

But think of me as a parasite

I need a host

But unlike a parasite

I don’t feed on people

I just need a body to live

And unfortunately

I woke up in her body

You think this situation is familiar?

Yeah, Everyday by David Levithan

God, she loves that book so much

Unlike A, though

I don’t wake up in a different body everyday

I stay in the same body

Until this body dies

Or so if I decide to leave

Unlike A, I have a gender

Sometimes, I wish to be like A

I might wake up in Park Jimin’s body

Yes, her one and only bias

But you know she’s a hoeyal

To every single member of BTS

I managed to learn some Korean

Because of this madness

Anyway, if I was A

I’d wake up as Aristotle

Mahatma Ghandi

Confucius

All the dead philosophist

And start a zombie apocalypse

To prove our theories

LOL

Or even a club stripper

A frog, maybe?

Who knows?

The possibilities are endless

The only thing I don’t like about being A

Is that A fell in love

What if that happens to me?

No fucking way

I don’t want to be waking up

A world apart from someone I like

Like I’m in America

And he’s in North Pole

Santa?

OH MY GOD

Scratch that

Why am I talking about A?

Anyway

I just want her to be satisfied with her life

While I’m here

I mean, who told you spirits are heartless?

Right, we are

But things happen

Shit things happen

This is like an unexpected inevitability

I’m feeling for her, yes

I want to see her smile on the last days of her life

I want to see her be happy for the rest of her days

If I could just make a miracle for her

But miracles don’t just happen in a wish

She has to make it happen

I mean like, hello?

Is someone out there even care for this woman?

If so, please tell her you care

She’s a bright young lass

She just wants love

Because she lost it

She tried everything

She never stopped trying

She’s tired

Don’t expect a red carpet

And a royal band for you entrance

This isn’t a fucking fairytale

Just barge in, you ass

She’s turning 20 this year

And she hasn’t had her first kiss

Don’t let her die a virgin

I know I’m gonna be dead if she’ll see this

She can’t do anything anyway ;)

But else, I care for her well-being

I may be just her soul

But I’ve been with her since forever

I know she’ll be thankful for this

And you, bitch

Get your lazy ass off the bed

And do what you want

Right, it’s your soul speaking

I exist, freak

Don’t be terrified

I didn’t do anything stupid

Well, if you count this as one

Sorry

No, really

I’m not sorry

I’m doing you a favor

So shut up and just breathe

This may sound cheesy but

사랑해, you 바보.